Streetlights

Hey you guys. How are you all doing? Today has been a bizarre day for me. A very long one. Ive gotten a lot of homework done. I still have more to do. But I really need a break. My brain is on overload right now. It is my fault. I let myself get behind. Don't panic tho. I'll get it taken care of. I need to get this school shit taken care of. I need to be done with it already. Im so tired of school and I need to get a big kid job. I need to be able to take care of people that I care about.

The only CD I've really been listening to recently has been 808s & Heartbreak. This album is so damn good. I know its almost a year old now. But its still growing on me to this day. It really is Kanye's best CD. I'm not sure what my favorite song on the album is currently. I've been listening to Street Lights a lot . Its so epic. The whole CD is really epic. The whole stripped down beats is one of the things I like so much about it. Kanye's usual style is the full pieced together beats. This album not so much. Love Lockdown has to be one of the sickest beats ever. The fact its like just a bassline and some sick drums.

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm doing what I can to not go crazy. I really need to make some tea. Lol. That shit helps to soothe me.

I swear though. I'm so in love. I didn't know somebody could be this in love. I truly mean that. This girl means everything to me. I really mean that. She is my best friend in the entire world. I've never cared about anyone even close to as much as I care about her. Its funny I can be totally down in the dumps but a 15second phone call from her can turn that all around. I've always known that I loved her. I didn't really realize just how much I truly did until a few weeks ago. The thought that something had happened to her. Jesus. I've never been so scared in my entire life. It really sucks that she's so stressed out by this school quarter. I know it'll get better. My heart believes in it. It really does. This is true love. I just know it. :) Its the kind of thing Desmond and Penny are jealous of. And wish they could attain (yes there is my Lost reference)

I'm currently downloading software to make rap beats. And writing a song. If the software works the way I need it to there'll be a song done by me. Hopefully before bed time. I'm not sure how private the song is going to be.

You'll all get a taste of my hip-hop soon. I may not be the best rapper ever. I'd like to believe that i am better then Tony Yayo. LOl.

There is my picture in my Kanye glasses

Seems like street lights glowing happen to be like moment passing in front of me.

John