Quick update. Just reading my history book. Getting caught up. This homie is really really behind tho. Not good. No sleep for a while I take it. Oh well. I did it to my own self. :)

Streetlights

Hey you guys. How are you all doing? Today has been a bizarre day for me. A very long one. Ive gotten a lot of homework done. I still have more to do. But I really need a break. My brain is on overload right now. It is my fault. I let myself get behind. Don't panic tho. I'll get it taken care of. I need to get this school shit taken care of. I need to be done with it already. Im so tired of school and I need to get a big kid job. I need to be able to take care of people that I care about.

The only CD I've really been listening to recently has been 808s & Heartbreak. This album is so damn good. I know its almost a year old now. But its still growing on me to this day. It really is Kanye's best CD. I'm not sure what my favorite song on the album is currently. I've been listening to Street Lights a lot . Its so epic. The whole CD is really epic. The whole stripped down beats is one of the things I like so much about it. Kanye's usual style is the full pieced together beats. This album not so much. Love Lockdown has to be one of the sickest beats ever. The fact its like just a bassline and some sick drums.

Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my mind. I'm doing what I can to not go crazy. I really need to make some tea. Lol. That shit helps to soothe me.

I swear though. I'm so in love. I didn't know somebody could be this in love. I truly mean that. This girl means everything to me. I really mean that. She is my best friend in the entire world. I've never cared about anyone even close to as much as I care about her. Its funny I can be totally down in the dumps but a 15second phone call from her can turn that all around. I've always known that I loved her. I didn't really realize just how much I truly did until a few weeks ago. The thought that something had happened to her. Jesus. I've never been so scared in my entire life. It really sucks that she's so stressed out by this school quarter. I know it'll get better. My heart believes in it. It really does. This is true love. I just know it. :) Its the kind of thing Desmond and Penny are jealous of. And wish they could attain (yes there is my Lost reference)

I'm currently downloading software to make rap beats. And writing a song. If the software works the way I need it to there'll be a song done by me. Hopefully before bed time. I'm not sure how private the song is going to be.

You'll all get a taste of my hip-hop soon. I may not be the best rapper ever. I'd like to believe that i am better then Tony Yayo. LOl.

There is my picture in my Kanye glasses

Seems like street lights glowing happen to be like moment passing in front of me.

John

Wed

Hey guys. Im writing between classes. Specificaly i'm waiting for history. This has been a long week. A very long week. Good news however I haven't drank any alcohol. Maybe absurd amounts of tea. I mean truly absurd amounts of tea. But oh well it helps to keep healthy and shit I suppose.

300 Bars and Runnin' really has to be one of the best diss songs of all time. Game says some realyl mean shit in it. And there is nothing I enjoy more than a mean rapper. Lol. Is that wrong? By far the best part of the whole song is
"Bitches only for your shit just a lil bit
Niggaz only for your shit just a lil bit
On my album 50 helped me just a lil bit
Only on two songs, now back to some killer shit"

How can you hear that and not laugh? I know I do.

I'm trying to stay as optomistic not exactly the easiet thing ever. But it the best idea. I got another pair of Kanyezzy glasses. This pair is glow in the dark unlike my previous pair which were just white. I really miss that pair. Oh well. Im thinking about doing some crazy shit to my hair again or doing something crazy. I also need to kick school back into high gear and that damn history book and read and the paper written. And kick psych into high gear. I guess its good that I'm off work tomorrow and school I can use that time to catch up. And study for psych. I will destroy the rest of this quarter.

I cant wait to get next quarter scheduled. Is it bad Im partially basing it on being able to watch Lost when its on? OK yes i suppose it is. But lets be honest with ourselves. If I had class when the final season was going on I'd skip. I wish it wasnt true. But it is. Ive just plain old invested far too much time into this fucking show to now know what the hell is going on.

And besides next quarter is going to suck. Its going to suck more then Tara Reid and Linsday Lohan at a competetive blowjob convention.

I have to take math and science and God only knows what else. I'll be lucky if I dont stab myself in the eye. With a sharpie. And that would suck. A lot. I bet I'd be in a lot of pain. And I dont like pain.

I should work on my novel for the bare minimum of 30 minutes a day.

Good ideas? Bad ideas? Let me know.

One Love
John

PS expect more later today

Well its back to blogging. I guess. I have lots of time on my hands. So I figure this would be a good way to make use it. Esp now that I twitter all the time. Twitter my friends is the greatest thing ever. Why is this? Its a simple way to keep people up to date with what I'm doing. And I know all of you care about that. Cause lets face it. There aren't many people who are more fly then I am. I'm a pretty fly ass mother fucker.

Back in school again. That's a good thing isn't? For those of you who don't know. I'm a history major. What am I going to do with it? Who the fuck knows. To be fair though who really knows what the fuck they're going to do with their degree anyway? My guess nobody actually knows what they want to do with their degree. And if you do well good for you.

So what am I up to? I guess I'm drinking tea and listening to music. Procrastinating doing my history. It is all the way out in my car! That's a good reason for me not doing it? Right. Yeah not really. But I still have time to get all of this down. I know I can handle it.

I need to get more focused on writing my novel and for my rap album. To be honest I just need to get more focused on all sorts of things. Recently Ive been so scattered brain I have no idea what the hell's going on.

Ive been so tense all day, however Ive finally started to calm down and loosen up now that I'm drinking tea (Tension tamer) and listening to hip-hop. And truthfully hip-hop is such a better genre of music then all of you even understand. I have such a nice variety on it. Even though I'll be the first to admit it needs to be expanded even more. Recently since late August really Ive been listening to a lot of Wu. It started a lot to be getting myself pumped for Only Built for Cuban Linx... Pt II. However unfortunately I never got myself a retail copy of that CD.

Speaking of CDs that more you can expect to see on this Blog. At least once or twice a week you can expect to see a CD review from me. Generally it wont be new music. Cause this year has been shitacualar. However you'll get some reviews and see what specific things I like in music what specific aspects of rap I really like or whatever kind of music I'm listening to.

You can also expect to see some of rap lyrics. Its that super-hero rap shit. I hope you like it, and you don't. You don't. These words that I write can go in so many different ways. Some might move you and some might offend you. If you are offended, deal with it. I don't give a fuck.
In the immortal words of Dr Dre "I don't even know who the fuck you are tell you to suck my dick while pissing"

John